February 2011
41 posts
Why do I dwell on rhetorical questions?
Insecurity is such a bitch. And I thought I was over that phase.
I don’t want to do this. I had a dream that I woke up and the suitcases were unpacked and we were all relieved.
I find lately that I question my strength more and more.
I can’t help it. I’m lost. Trying my best to keep my head above water, that’s all I can do. In a constant state of catching up, of getting by, I long for the time I can breathe and excel. At something. Anything.
“Blink and you’ll miss it.”
I am trying my best not to blink; I don’t want to miss anything.
Did we ever imagine we’d make it this far? Take a deep breath and a good look around because we’re only moving forward.
break
I have been reveling in laziness. Some of it due to habit and some of it due to this strange feeling that cannot be pinned down—something of a mix between loneliness and apprehension.
In terms of an update, the suitcases are now packed and tied up, ready to go. This freaks me out just the tiniest bit every time I see them carefully perched in the corner of the room. They mock my...
Snowflakes are better at falling than the rest of us.
“Follow your inner moonlight; don’t hide the madness.”
– Allen Ginsberg
I’ve always wondered what raindrops are thinking when they fall.
“Simplicity is the ultimate sophistication.”
– Leonardo da Vinci
“If you have built castles in the air, your work need not be lost; that is where...”
– Henry David Thoreau
in over your head
http://inoveryourhead.net/a-quick-but-important-primer-on-becoming-a-douchebag/
“It’s possible that some people you consider douchebags are actually just confident, and that you hate them because they have the balls that you don’t. It’s possible that you’re jealous. And it’s possible that it’s a matter of perspective, and that if you had balls, they wouldn’t bother you.
Do I think it’s a...
“No matter what anybody tells you, words and ideas can change the world.”
– Dead Poets Society
“Stop flattering yourself; these tears aren’t for you.
…They’re from the chlorine.”
Haha too bad I don’t actually have anyone to say that to.
Maybe that’s a good thing.
let go
Today I went back and un-privated a handful of old posts. Don’t know why I did but it just felt right. Not so much as an effort to re-write “history” (history? well I guess a lot can change in a matter of months) as a delayed way of letting go. If you haven’t figured out by now, I’m a sucker for that sort of symbolic comfort. So maybe this is something I’ll do...
say no
story of my life.
incapacityinc:
It feels liberating to say ‘no’ every once in a while. It makes you realize you can’t do everything. It is just impossible. You have a limited amount of time and there are an endless amount of options. If you say yes to everything, you will end up doing a whole lot of things you don’t really want to do. You will end up wasting time. So you need to choose. You...
“As time goes by people will see who I am for who I am.”
– Justin Timberlake
diversity
I swear if there were more Dennis Joseph O’Neil(s) around, there would be no such thing as racism.
Hm. Well you and I and everyone all know perfectly well that we can’t do this anymore. I can’t do this. I don’t know what I’m doing. But it’s not this.
king of hearts
today i wore my heart on my sleeve
…and it broke
i taped it back together
and put it back on
but it wasn’t the same
so i stopped wearing it
on my sleeve after that
because it was too fragile
and i didn’t want it to break
again
“be you”
they always say
but what if
“me”
is never
goodenough?
a-lone
al-one
all one
It is sometimes comforting staying invisible online
because I know I can’t be in real life.
“You can ask the universe for all the signs you want, but ultimately, we see what...”
– How I Met Your Mother
“In the book of life, the answers aren’t in the back.”
– Charlie Brown
The Quiet World
BY JEFFREY MCDANIEL
In an effort to get people to look into each other’s eyes more, and also to appease the mutes, the government has decided to allot each person exactly one hundred and sixty-seven words, per day.
When the phone rings, I put it to my ear without saying hello. In the restaurant I point at chicken noodle soup. I am adjusting well to the new way.
Late...
“And I’m so sick of love songs, so tired of tears…”
– Ne-Yo
forget the world
我爱我的妈。
